Choosing me

I refuse to lose myself for the approval of others. I refuse to give all my energy away like that. See the hard truth is that there are people who love you just as you are. It's peaceful. You don't have to change, it's not what you do for them, there's no need for approval. That's because they all ready love you for you. They enjoy spending time with you because youre simply you. Those are the peaceful people. The ones that don't drain your energy because your spending so much time wanting their approval but you don't have to because they all ready love you. So I will choose me. I'm taking my walls down. Yes that's scary. But this me is different because I'm not going to go out of my way to find approval. I will not be draining my energy. I'm going to find the peaceful people the ones that actually like being around me because of who I all ready am. I know who I am now. I don't need to go out of my way to prove that I am. I'm going to shine my weirdness like a light in hopes to find others that align with my energy. The ones who like me for me. This is a new path for me, I've had these walls up so long. These walls feel suffocating and I'm tired of feeling like I need to hide myself. This is freedom. Free to be me. All these years keeping these walls up for protection for survival, that's not me anymore. My lesson from all of this is that those walls, they may have kept me safe, but it also blocked everyone out. I know what it feels like now when someone actually genuinely likes me now or when they're just using me. I feel like I've learned this lesson and I'm ready to move forward. I'm ready to let go of the past. It's taken some time but I got there.